My Forever Pillow, My Soldier

My Wonderful Ipo-Charles,

Its been one year, three months that i havent seen you personally & touch every cell in your skin. I know you are doin so well in God's grace, and getting stronger everyday while busy yourself doin the therapy for your leg and patiently working for the hardest job in the world.

"Iam doin okey my Love, coz i have you" are always the great words i hear from you whenever i ask "How are you?" over the phone. And even before i ask you on that, there's always a big smile that i feel from you over that long distance call i always made for you, that giggles me at all times coz i know ur happy when i called. The feeling of knowing that you are happy whenever we talked, really made me feel so special coz it shows how much i mean to you.

I always believe that communication is one best thing to make both lovers stay stronger. And without sharing it with you about that, you communicate with me even without asking you to do it with me. Did you know that, in that little way you made me love you more and more each day? Why? coz that just simply means you love to talk with me, you look forward everyday to talk with me & lastly you made it feel for me that you love me. I felt so warmed that i have someone in this world who feels the same as i felt for him. That someone in the other side of the world makes me believe that his real.

Real? did you remember my dear ipo, on how many times i always asked you the time we both discovered how both our love has developed for the two of us? yeah i know i was totally annoying kept on asking you, but you didnt made me feel that you were annoyed but you just simply say that "im real, and i swear it to you".. Those promises made me trust and believe you even more, coz i have felt that from the time we started talking. And i love you even more now for you are just not real, you are as well genuine.

The Start.. hmmm.. how did we end up us couples? funny it is that we met over yahoo messenger, both strangers, both dont have any ideas with whats with it, but we exactly both love and enjoying every minute of it. I remember it was mid of December in the year 2002, that i was curious with your yahoo id, where at that time i was so damn bored exchanging notes and messages to those boring peeps online. You, yes YOU! made me feel that people online are not boring.. hahahhaha.. but you are just the only person that i known online who is not boring... why? coz u are smarter than anybody else. you talked a lot.... you said a lot... you whispered a lot... in those times that we both didnt agreed but only in our minds that we are goin to get online and talked during weekends, sunday here, saturday evening there... hmmmm.. wasnt it great that the Lord Above made ways for us to talk? and yet suddenly after few months of talking as "close-online-friends", the time has changed. You were deployed to Iraq and Our conversation had suddenly gone.

I was not happy with that situation coz i have loved talking with you even if we didnt hear each other's voice, even if you treated me as just a friend online.. I thought by then, sad to say, you are dead and now in God's hands due to the deadliest war you have been.

I never had forgotten you, coz you were in my mind, i prayed for you to the Lord above that he will forever guide you with him.

Months after that, i was attached with somebody special to my heart, and my thoughts of you have vanished. I was inlove, young at heart at that time, inlove to the point that i lost love to myself which lead me to lost everything, my family, my wonderful career & myself. I was all by myself then, searching for my own soul to heal everything and repair what has to be repair. But after that stupid love i had with that man, i was depressed. But with that depression, God is the only person that im so attached with, to give me strenght, to give me someone who would love me unconditionally and willing to accept me as WHO IAM.

After years or months, I never thought that God seriously took my request. He gave me YOU. Its so amazing that i saw you online and was so shocked that you were online on that Saturday afternoon while i was overtime at work. For all ive known, you were already dead. I didnt expect that to happened. Without second thoughts, i send message to you with a simple "Hi". Minutes after that, you replied, and you amazed me with your response, a long message telling me everything and anything to let me know that you still remember me... I never expect that kind of message coz with just my simple 'Hi', you remembered a lot, and you were happy i finally contacted you...

Every first greetings i have with you, every single word i sent you, you amazed me with your wonderful responses. I know by then, that God made ways for us to be happy and finally will say what has to say and felt for each other.

My dear ipo, the love we have is so amazing, you were the least person i expected to be my husband. The person i never expect who will love me unconditionally. But God works for us. God is so good for giving me the perfect Man i ever wanted. And that im proud that YOU repaired my life, let me search my soul, give me freedom, understands me even in my stupidiest thoughts & actions, you made me get back to whom i am coz of the precious Love you gave me.

I love you my Charles, and always remember, i will be forever a proud Mrs Ferna Mae Scarce.

Your undying love, your hope and your faith for us made me feel stronger everyday without you by my side. You made long distance relationship works for us, with God to guide to make this all happen.

My Forever Pillow, you are my special someone just for me.