the Jealousy version of MOI..

im jealous, insecured whenever i have friends who will visit their husband who live on the other place on earth. jealous? coz i sometimes thought that "i hope its me" who will go there. insecurity strikes again me, insecure for i thought once more that "it should be me". Argh! when will that time Be? I miss my husband so much that tends me to argue with him all the time (my fault), that tends me to get jealous those lovey-doo ive seen all over the place, that tends me to get mad as hell with no reason, made me agitated with no valid reasons. When will this feeling stop? i hate to feel this way.