drastic change

im adjusting.. yes iam.. for seven years that ive been out from school, i felt like this whole new thing to me are indeed NEW. I failed once, and i dont want that to happen again, i know im not that good in accounting, but im sure and confident of myself that i can do it, hahahah.. conceited???? well anyway, if and only if i cant make it this time, i know there'll be a reason behind that, but i wont stop until i can have the license.. i stopped before due to my brilliant attitude that no one can understand (in other words, a big bummer! faulty fern!) but hey dont fret for i changed, the only constant in this world is change, right? and iv learned a lot.. not just a lot, but a lot lot lot more.. heheheh.. And i know God is there.. Some say its impossible, hmmm...its impossible, yeah i know very impossible for someone like me to have some changes in life.. but thats how life it is..

alright, i sometimes slept when reading notes of accounting.. (the pic serves as proof, my dear sister took me pic while i fall asleep one night in my room) i sometimes got tired, and BORED.. but i think, if i just have to look forward, i know i will be happy with this hardwork... i wont stop, i wont quit, i will and can survive with this, i may dont have moolah like i used to, coz i have a job to support me, but im sure enough that this whole thing that being supported by my husband, is quiet interesting and challenging for me.. heheheheh... God will be there and God will provide. I will keep on prayin and serve him as his wonderful daughter.. My patience is still there, and most especially my Faith & Love... as what Rica Peralejo would always say in her blog in every minute God made a change in our life.. hmmm that just surely made me realize and thought that its true... (for better is what i meant for, ok?) God made wonders i know.. heheheh..

for this i know, i will make it with full force of studying of course, to make myself confident when the time of exam comes and with the help of God above..

ill update it in here when that time comes..

God bless everyone and have a happy weekend... ciao!

My Forever Pillow, My Soldier

My Wonderful Ipo-Charles,

Its been one year, three months that i havent seen you personally & touch every cell in your skin. I know you are doin so well in God's grace, and getting stronger everyday while busy yourself doin the therapy for your leg and patiently working for the hardest job in the world.

"Iam doin okey my Love, coz i have you" are always the great words i hear from you whenever i ask "How are you?" over the phone. And even before i ask you on that, there's always a big smile that i feel from you over that long distance call i always made for you, that giggles me at all times coz i know ur happy when i called. The feeling of knowing that you are happy whenever we talked, really made me feel so special coz it shows how much i mean to you.

I always believe that communication is one best thing to make both lovers stay stronger. And without sharing it with you about that, you communicate with me even without asking you to do it with me. Did you know that, in that little way you made me love you more and more each day? Why? coz that just simply means you love to talk with me, you look forward everyday to talk with me & lastly you made it feel for me that you love me. I felt so warmed that i have someone in this world who feels the same as i felt for him. That someone in the other side of the world makes me believe that his real.

Real? did you remember my dear ipo, on how many times i always asked you the time we both discovered how both our love has developed for the two of us? yeah i know i was totally annoying kept on asking you, but you didnt made me feel that you were annoyed but you just simply say that "im real, and i swear it to you".. Those promises made me trust and believe you even more, coz i have felt that from the time we started talking. And i love you even more now for you are just not real, you are as well genuine.

The Start.. hmmm.. how did we end up us couples? funny it is that we met over yahoo messenger, both strangers, both dont have any ideas with whats with it, but we exactly both love and enjoying every minute of it. I remember it was mid of December in the year 2002, that i was curious with your yahoo id, where at that time i was so damn bored exchanging notes and messages to those boring peeps online. You, yes YOU! made me feel that people online are not boring.. hahahhaha.. but you are just the only person that i known online who is not boring... why? coz u are smarter than anybody else. you talked a lot.... you said a lot... you whispered a lot... in those times that we both didnt agreed but only in our minds that we are goin to get online and talked during weekends, sunday here, saturday evening there... hmmmm.. wasnt it great that the Lord Above made ways for us to talk? and yet suddenly after few months of talking as "close-online-friends", the time has changed. You were deployed to Iraq and Our conversation had suddenly gone.

I was not happy with that situation coz i have loved talking with you even if we didnt hear each other's voice, even if you treated me as just a friend online.. I thought by then, sad to say, you are dead and now in God's hands due to the deadliest war you have been.

I never had forgotten you, coz you were in my mind, i prayed for you to the Lord above that he will forever guide you with him.

Months after that, i was attached with somebody special to my heart, and my thoughts of you have vanished. I was inlove, young at heart at that time, inlove to the point that i lost love to myself which lead me to lost everything, my family, my wonderful career & myself. I was all by myself then, searching for my own soul to heal everything and repair what has to be repair. But after that stupid love i had with that man, i was depressed. But with that depression, God is the only person that im so attached with, to give me strenght, to give me someone who would love me unconditionally and willing to accept me as WHO IAM.

After years or months, I never thought that God seriously took my request. He gave me YOU. Its so amazing that i saw you online and was so shocked that you were online on that Saturday afternoon while i was overtime at work. For all ive known, you were already dead. I didnt expect that to happened. Without second thoughts, i send message to you with a simple "Hi". Minutes after that, you replied, and you amazed me with your response, a long message telling me everything and anything to let me know that you still remember me... I never expect that kind of message coz with just my simple 'Hi', you remembered a lot, and you were happy i finally contacted you...

Every first greetings i have with you, every single word i sent you, you amazed me with your wonderful responses. I know by then, that God made ways for us to be happy and finally will say what has to say and felt for each other.

My dear ipo, the love we have is so amazing, you were the least person i expected to be my husband. The person i never expect who will love me unconditionally. But God works for us. God is so good for giving me the perfect Man i ever wanted. And that im proud that YOU repaired my life, let me search my soul, give me freedom, understands me even in my stupidiest thoughts & actions, you made me get back to whom i am coz of the precious Love you gave me.

I love you my Charles, and always remember, i will be forever a proud Mrs Ferna Mae Scarce.

Your undying love, your hope and your faith for us made me feel stronger everyday without you by my side. You made long distance relationship works for us, with God to guide to make this all happen.

My Forever Pillow, you are my special someone just for me.

ill be missin the corporate world

its not the end, but a wonderful beginning for me (hopefully)... today, i bid bye bye to p&g... after more than a month of tendering my resignation, my PMs had finally signed my papers (all is cleared now, yahoo!)

i felt bad for ill be missing everybody there, (esp. that invader in my candid pic, my co-rockstar Sands) for all them have brought meaning to my life in different aspects. Ive known different people in just one floor, there's a rockstar, there's a sentimental, a very-sensitive dork (guess who am talkin to?), a very patient one, ah basta iba iba ugali nila, but in spite of the differences we all have, we still remain as friends & support each other, though lots of problem occurred, especially in our job that is all the time "on-the'go!" & a little bit like a doctor who is "on-call", i cannot share what kind of work we all have, but i surely will say, i have a wonderful experience in p&g not just in my field but coordinating with people too. I've learned a lot, to be inititiave, to be energetic, get motivated & to dream high.

I will miss the corporate world, but i know this aint gonna be the last, but just a beginning for me to climb the highest mountain. (tama kaya ang pinagsasabi ko? bobo pa naman ako sa english, hahahahah)

Si Fern Tamad

hay naku umiiral na naman ang aking katamaran...

two days na akong di nag aaral, to think malapit na ang exam at dami ko pang dapit intindihin.. ano ba eto! at hindi lang yan, sobrang tamad ko na rin sa bahay.. gusto ko nilulutuan ako, siniserbesyoan (excuse my spelling, cebuana ako eh, LOL)...ano ba etetch fern... kupad mo pa! grrrrrrrrr....

i hate myself when i got the feeling of sssuuuupppppeerrr llllaaaazzzyyyy.... yeah, i sometimes act like that and felt bored at myself which opt me to freeze and do nothing.. kainis di ba? i just dont know if you guyz felt the same feelings that i had.. maybe im gonna be okey.. pero ewan ko nga lang.. its almost 2am na nga ngayon eh eto at im still staring at the pc doing nothing, thinking nothing.... ay ewan! but i only have this feeling pag nasa house lang ako... but when i go out syempre sa school and office lang naman ang tambayan ko di ba.. parang energetic ako.. pero ngayon which it started pala just these few days, eh naging Juan tamad na ako.. ano ba? naiinis na ako sa ganitong karamdaman... grrrrrrr.. help me to resist with this please...

My Josh!

before i go on.. i would like to say ILOVEYOU my charles before you get mad at me in posting this.. heheheheh..

yeah yeah yeah my husband's getting paranoid when i speak of Josh Hartnett, one of the ultimate crush that i have. i dont know why but his one of the man in the world with oozzzziiiinnnnggggg personality, okey lets just say charles has more of that (so he wont get mad at me, heheheh)

his in the Philippines, got that? yeah he is, and the worst thing is i just recently knew about that news (bad influence studies, im not anymore updated with whats goin on now in the world, LOL) if only, yeah if only i have Moolah to travel all the way to Davao where he is, i should come over there and met him personally, grrrrrr... people who knew me, knows that im not the kind of person who is goin to make efforts with the celebrities here in the Phils just to met them personally, nah ah, i aint like that, but when u speak of Josh Harnett, Brad Pitt, Jessica Alba, Vince Diesel, The Cranberries & Mostly rock bands (including christian rock bands) & of course Angelina Jolie, i will make a lot of effort just to see them.. yah just to see them, i know its not that important, but idolizing these people is one thing that im crazy of..

ill just dream of Josh Hartnett and think that we met over here.. oh my! i dont know whats goin to happen to me if i had the chance to see him... God please guide me... hehehehhe...

day-off

its my day-off both from work & school, isnt it cool? yeah, for me it is dear... after having a wonderful conversation online with my dearest husband, my sister & few of our housemates decided to go to Trinoma, and since our ref is almost empty, we thought of its time for us to do grocery..

its my first menstrual day, and i felt bad for when we got to Trinoma, dysmenorrhea striked me (grrrrrrrrrr!) good thing there's mercury around so i grabbed ponstan to heal the pain.... & Thank God it healed..

my day-off went well, only that i got a bit pissed off at the grocery, the long queu over the counter really sucks! though yeah all of the stuff that i wanted to buy are already in the basket, so i couldnt just left there & back out... that surely made me mad... i will never-ever do grocery during weekends!

here's by the way, a pic of nanny's day off! wooohhoooooo!

and ops! flip flops (havaianas) are already open in Trinoma! go grab havaianas na!

acidic vs. alkaline foods

okey i just found out why sometimes i experienced back pains, stomach pains, headaches & etc these days, its merely due to my non-stop acidic foods! yeah, i got more acidic foods than that alkaline foods.. arg! its killin me sometimes for i easily got mad and nervous, & it feels like im agitated with no reason... i find it weird and thought of searching over the net on what the heck are these symptoms im experiencing now..

right after i read that stuff, i hurriedly went to convenient store and grab some alkaline foods.. hahahah! i should have known this thing before it made me sick.. whew!

i found out that we should take a ratio between alkaline and acidic foods, it should be 4:1, or 80% of alkaline & 20% of acidic foods, more acids in our body will cause us a lot pains, if you by the way experienced these pains:

* Lack of energy; constant fatigue, loss of physical tone and psychic drive, sensation of heaviness in the limbs, feelings of inability to cope.
* Lower body temperature; frequently feels cold.
* Tendency to get infections.
* Loss of drive, joy, and enthusiasm.
* Depressive tendencies.
* Nervousness: agitation without cause, hyperactivity, sensitivity to high-pitched noises and easily stressed.
* Very pale face.
* Headaches.
* Eyes tear easily.
* Conjunctivitis.
* Inflammation of the corneas and eyelids.
* Acidic saliva.
* Loose teeth.
* Inflamed, sensitive gums.
* Mouth ulcers.
* Cracks at the corners of the lips.
* Recurring infections of throat and tonsils.
* Teeth are sensitive to hot, cold, or acidic foods.
* Teeth have a tendency to crack or chip.
* Pain in the nerves of the teeth.
* Excess stomach acid.
* Acid regurgitation.
* Gastritis.
* Ulcers.
* Nails are thin and split and break easily.
* Hair looks dull, has split ends, and falls out.
* Dry skin.
* Skin tends to be irritated in regions where there are heavy concentrations of sweat.
* Hives.
* Leg cramps and spasms.

you should lessen eating acidic foods... and yeah yeah yeah! im experiencing most of it right now, so i should for a while avoid eating acidic foods..

just google in the net acidic & alkaline foods to have some infos on what are the right foods to eat.


stay safe! happy eating!

the coolest suggestion

my dear ipo was insisting me today to have a night out just to released stress, but nah! i kinda dont like to go out clubbing nor bar hopping, i find it boring these days and its not one of my list. He said why dont i try to watch movie? and then i realized, gosh! its been a loooooonnnnnngggggg time that i havent watched movie well for a month i think (before, one month for me of not watching any movie was damn pathetic) tsk tsk, what a change of life i have right now huh? but well, i dont think i got bored this time, only that when Charles told me that i need to go out for a while, i then thought of it...

well, while we were talking on some other stuff online, my mind was busy thinking of places to go.. and i remember Singapore! we plan to go there with my dear Khrysta, but since Khyrsta is not available not until next year, i will visit Maki (our main plan) & oh have to tell him that he should make his condo available.. heheheheh.. hmmmm... so i told Charles about it, and My dear Ipo, said yes without second thought.. and now im so very excited! yahoo!

Im searching for that Promo of Cebu Pacific & PAL....

wish me luck!

paintjam dan dunn

thy policemen

(before you read, i would say sorry for cussing so badly, coz i really got mad about what i have witnessed)


as i was on my way to school today, the FX that i rode in got caught by the police without violating anything... that thing really pissed me off, i know im not that familiar with all the rules & regulations that MMDA implemented but im somewhat aware naman kahit papano...

the driver dropped the passenger infront of the loading/unloading area but how come just seconds or minutes i think right after he dropped that passenger in that area, we were being followed by this bullshit police & let the driver stopped the vehicle on the other side of the road, right there & then, they pulled out the plates of the vehicle, the driver repeatedly asked them whats his violation at putanginang mga police yan, sinabihan ba lang naman ang driver na "EH NAG UNLOAD KA SA MALING LUGAR EH!" in a very loud sympathetic voice, jos ko naman kitang kita kaya ng dalawang mata ang sign where the vehicle stopped nung bumaba ang ali, i was in front seat by the way, and guess whats the worst thing that the policemen did? they wanted the driver to pay them 150pesos just because of that, para lang daw maibalik yung kinuhang nilang plate.. punyeta naman oh! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... ano ba namang klaseng police meron tau??!!! bigla kaming nagreact na mga pasahero kasi alam namin na tama naman yung ginawa ng driver & aside from they made us wait pa ng matagalan.. fuckshit! at parang walang mga tenga ang mga hinayupak! at ayaw kami pakinggan kelangan dawng magbayad nung driver bago kami makaalis... kainis!!!! so, maybe just to avoid whatever arguments, the driver paid them na lang.. tsk tsk tsk...

those policemen were the ones who violate their own rules... they just want money! grabe na talaga! i got mad of this coz its not only the first time that i experienced this with policemen, kaya inis na inis ako kanina...

Hope GMA will take actions for all the unworthy policemen in our country...

i was just curious

due to my curiosity on whats this all about... & well, yeah to know myself as well (accdg to that survey) while having a chit-chat with a dear friend, she sent this one to me... i find it interesting..

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul. Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

You Are 63% Independent

You've cultivated your own indepedent interests and personal style. But you're open minded enough to also embrace anything trendy that strikes you.

Are You an Independent Woman?

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

when u get damn bored, i suggest u try this one.. the blogthings...

been out

accomodated a lot of things in life these past few days, aside from worrying bout my husband's operation (which thank God went well), work made me sick and gave me pressures, reports here & everywhere. At last, i already have a replacement since last monday, as ive mentioned in my previous post, she's a newly CPA board passer oh di vah? ang saya saya! heheheh... well, im not anymore inclined with the social world(anti-social na ang lola mo, i am as well not updated with the movies showing these days, buti na lang i had dinner with fellow officemates tonight at nabawas bawasan ang pagka anti-social ko kahit konti LOL. Been busy with the review, yeah i am, redbull & extra joss are now my bestfriends who kept me energetic all day and night. I have tons of unread messages in my inbox, my sincere apologies to my dearest friends outside the country who keep on sending emails to me, i promise to read them all whenever i have time this weekend. Hay naku, ganun kagrabe yung life ko ngayon, but despite the busy days i have & had, i never forget to call and send messages to my dearest husband, the love is still burnin.. hehehehehhe...

so how bout you? what have u been upto? keep me posted..:)

i really thank you guyz

......thank you guyz for the prayers, u all are good friends talaga.. hehehehe. & most especially to my family, who were there all the way. Charles operation went well, though syempre he still needs a 30day recovery, but im sure with the help of his everyday therapy he will be okey.

worries

im super dooper worried tonight.. charles will have his operation, well, on going nga ngayon, di ako makatulog, sobrang alala ako... syempre ang layo ko kaya sa kanya tapos wala man lang nag-aalaga for him.. sino ba namang hindi magwoworry niyan.. kainis na embassy eto hindi man lang approve yung request ng asawa ko to be there with him kahit 30days.. bullshit talaga! hahay... i know God will be there with him.. and is there with him.. i keep on prayin..ngayon lang ako sobrang stressed at sobrang nag iisip..

Stardust by Neil Gaiman (now a movie)

Its now a movie!!!.... woohoo! i cant wait for this movie to come out.. just to let you know that ive been waiting for this movie..hehehehe...

the zombie's thoughts at this wee hour

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10 more working days to go & ill be finally out from the corporate world

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My loving husband Charles will have his leg operation on August 1st, please...please include it in your prayers, it'll help a lot... thanks-thanks!

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Im still awake (at 4am) and its like almost a month that ive been like this every weekends.

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My bestfriend Khyrsta had her first day at work in Citibank.

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Watched last Monday Die Hard 4--- John Mclane is hard to kill...

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Been patient lately

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in love with Ninja (our super cat!)

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intimidated with the one who's goin to replace me, a CPA (whoooooooooow)

harry potter week?

harry potter week for most of my friends.... yeah i know,i havent bought one... heheheh.. i cant afford to have that this time.. while all of them busy with the book, i, on the other hand busy scanning and reading accounting ones & oh! got a new book from SM by Anne Fisher..heheh.. wala akong sleep niyan ha..

Transformers Rocks!

TRANSFORMER! just saw the movie last sat with khrysta at Trinoma... it really rocks! Awesome! i think this is the best film that Michael Bay did.. heheheh.. kudos to you Michael Bay... and im goin to watch it again.. looking for someone to accompany me....

resignation

at long last, i finally had the chance to fixed it with our SPOC today regarding my resignation. For the third time, she accepted it (abay, dapat lang wala na syang magawa)... so im relieved na rin... i can now concentrate with my review although half of me is saddened with this for i love staying in that company and i wont be having any extra moolah na (huhuhuhuhu)... wish me luck for the upcoming board exam...

moody me..

the time i woke up early today, my mind was driving me crazy agreeing with my lazy body to not goin to school today... and they won about it.. craziness & laziness striked me again.. and i dont like to feel like this.. my twelve hour class today was missed which simply means i messed... oh no... ive been thinking today i whole day that is, i have to choose between my job and my review.. its not easy to quit either one and of course i want to have a name in the future.. im confused right now, i dont want to quit my job coz of course i need moolah.. but, its really hard to cope things up with my review if i wont quit... help me help me Lord...