HTML-CSS

alright i know some of you know bout HTML and CSS.. and im so damn clueless with this, just few hours ago, i read infos about this just to change my profile both in my blogspot and multiply. So tired to read for it really didnt catch my interest, or shall i say i found it really hard? hahahahah... this whole techy thingy must be one on top of my list... grrrrrrr...

a new bike, sunday church

just want to post this lang this time.. heheheh.. alright, alright! My charles has a new bike (it aint actually as new as "new" (u know what im saying right?) hehehhe.. a kind friend of charles gave it to him... and whoever you are, i thank you super BIG! hehehehe... for you made a big smile to my husband, you got the heart that is so much kind.. and I know God made this way & definitely has a good purpose. Well, anyway, i am very happy as well, heheheh..

enough with happiness.. there's just something with this bike that made me want it so badly right now! its the same as the bike that Angelina Jolie had in her Tomb Raider Movie ( yeah, it aint same brand, but mind you, it just a li'l bit same as she got, just agree with me alright? LOL) hmmmm.... cant wait to ride that one!


well, so much for that bike thingy :) i skipped from church today hmmm im sad about that, well to those who dont know me that much, i am the kind of person who dont go to church every sunday but im the type of person who Believes in Him in every way... Faith is more important to most of us. (just please dont argue with me why i dont go to church, ok?) we all have our own belief, that is im sure of and i wont questioned whats yours.. But in every way, i know God will be with us all the way...

p.s. got the chance to talk to my ipo online...till almost 4am in Colorado (i know i bugged him all the time to get online, but what shall i do, i terribly miss him)

and oh, wasnt able to read notes for school (ohmygawd!)

to sum it all, my day was great.... hope u guys too..

drastic change

im adjusting.. yes iam.. for seven years that ive been out from school, i felt like this whole new thing to me are indeed NEW. I failed once, and i dont want that to happen again, i know im not that good in accounting, but im sure and confident of myself that i can do it, hahahah.. conceited???? well anyway, if and only if i cant make it this time, i know there'll be a reason behind that, but i wont stop until i can have the license.. i stopped before due to my brilliant attitude that no one can understand (in other words, a big bummer! faulty fern!) but hey dont fret for i changed, the only constant in this world is change, right? and iv learned a lot.. not just a lot, but a lot lot lot more.. heheheh.. And i know God is there.. Some say its impossible, hmmm...its impossible, yeah i know very impossible for someone like me to have some changes in life.. but thats how life it is..

alright, i sometimes slept when reading notes of accounting.. (the pic serves as proof, my dear sister took me pic while i fall asleep one night in my room) i sometimes got tired, and BORED.. but i think, if i just have to look forward, i know i will be happy with this hardwork... i wont stop, i wont quit, i will and can survive with this, i may dont have moolah like i used to, coz i have a job to support me, but im sure enough that this whole thing that being supported by my husband, is quiet interesting and challenging for me.. heheheheh... God will be there and God will provide. I will keep on prayin and serve him as his wonderful daughter.. My patience is still there, and most especially my Faith & Love... as what Rica Peralejo would always say in her blog in every minute God made a change in our life.. hmmm that just surely made me realize and thought that its true... (for better is what i meant for, ok?) God made wonders i know.. heheheh..

for this i know, i will make it with full force of studying of course, to make myself confident when the time of exam comes and with the help of God above..

ill update it in here when that time comes..

God bless everyone and have a happy weekend... ciao!

My Forever Pillow, My Soldier

My Wonderful Ipo-Charles,

Its been one year, three months that i havent seen you personally & touch every cell in your skin. I know you are doin so well in God's grace, and getting stronger everyday while busy yourself doin the therapy for your leg and patiently working for the hardest job in the world.

"Iam doin okey my Love, coz i have you" are always the great words i hear from you whenever i ask "How are you?" over the phone. And even before i ask you on that, there's always a big smile that i feel from you over that long distance call i always made for you, that giggles me at all times coz i know ur happy when i called. The feeling of knowing that you are happy whenever we talked, really made me feel so special coz it shows how much i mean to you.

I always believe that communication is one best thing to make both lovers stay stronger. And without sharing it with you about that, you communicate with me even without asking you to do it with me. Did you know that, in that little way you made me love you more and more each day? Why? coz that just simply means you love to talk with me, you look forward everyday to talk with me & lastly you made it feel for me that you love me. I felt so warmed that i have someone in this world who feels the same as i felt for him. That someone in the other side of the world makes me believe that his real.

Real? did you remember my dear ipo, on how many times i always asked you the time we both discovered how both our love has developed for the two of us? yeah i know i was totally annoying kept on asking you, but you didnt made me feel that you were annoyed but you just simply say that "im real, and i swear it to you".. Those promises made me trust and believe you even more, coz i have felt that from the time we started talking. And i love you even more now for you are just not real, you are as well genuine.

The Start.. hmmm.. how did we end up us couples? funny it is that we met over yahoo messenger, both strangers, both dont have any ideas with whats with it, but we exactly both love and enjoying every minute of it. I remember it was mid of December in the year 2002, that i was curious with your yahoo id, where at that time i was so damn bored exchanging notes and messages to those boring peeps online. You, yes YOU! made me feel that people online are not boring.. hahahhaha.. but you are just the only person that i known online who is not boring... why? coz u are smarter than anybody else. you talked a lot.... you said a lot... you whispered a lot... in those times that we both didnt agreed but only in our minds that we are goin to get online and talked during weekends, sunday here, saturday evening there... hmmmm.. wasnt it great that the Lord Above made ways for us to talk? and yet suddenly after few months of talking as "close-online-friends", the time has changed. You were deployed to Iraq and Our conversation had suddenly gone.

I was not happy with that situation coz i have loved talking with you even if we didnt hear each other's voice, even if you treated me as just a friend online.. I thought by then, sad to say, you are dead and now in God's hands due to the deadliest war you have been.

I never had forgotten you, coz you were in my mind, i prayed for you to the Lord above that he will forever guide you with him.

Months after that, i was attached with somebody special to my heart, and my thoughts of you have vanished. I was inlove, young at heart at that time, inlove to the point that i lost love to myself which lead me to lost everything, my family, my wonderful career & myself. I was all by myself then, searching for my own soul to heal everything and repair what has to be repair. But after that stupid love i had with that man, i was depressed. But with that depression, God is the only person that im so attached with, to give me strenght, to give me someone who would love me unconditionally and willing to accept me as WHO IAM.

After years or months, I never thought that God seriously took my request. He gave me YOU. Its so amazing that i saw you online and was so shocked that you were online on that Saturday afternoon while i was overtime at work. For all ive known, you were already dead. I didnt expect that to happened. Without second thoughts, i send message to you with a simple "Hi". Minutes after that, you replied, and you amazed me with your response, a long message telling me everything and anything to let me know that you still remember me... I never expect that kind of message coz with just my simple 'Hi', you remembered a lot, and you were happy i finally contacted you...

Every first greetings i have with you, every single word i sent you, you amazed me with your wonderful responses. I know by then, that God made ways for us to be happy and finally will say what has to say and felt for each other.

My dear ipo, the love we have is so amazing, you were the least person i expected to be my husband. The person i never expect who will love me unconditionally. But God works for us. God is so good for giving me the perfect Man i ever wanted. And that im proud that YOU repaired my life, let me search my soul, give me freedom, understands me even in my stupidiest thoughts & actions, you made me get back to whom i am coz of the precious Love you gave me.

I love you my Charles, and always remember, i will be forever a proud Mrs Ferna Mae Scarce.

Your undying love, your hope and your faith for us made me feel stronger everyday without you by my side. You made long distance relationship works for us, with God to guide to make this all happen.

My Forever Pillow, you are my special someone just for me.

ill be missin the corporate world

its not the end, but a wonderful beginning for me (hopefully)... today, i bid bye bye to p&g... after more than a month of tendering my resignation, my PMs had finally signed my papers (all is cleared now, yahoo!)

i felt bad for ill be missing everybody there, (esp. that invader in my candid pic, my co-rockstar Sands) for all them have brought meaning to my life in different aspects. Ive known different people in just one floor, there's a rockstar, there's a sentimental, a very-sensitive dork (guess who am talkin to?), a very patient one, ah basta iba iba ugali nila, but in spite of the differences we all have, we still remain as friends & support each other, though lots of problem occurred, especially in our job that is all the time "on-the'go!" & a little bit like a doctor who is "on-call", i cannot share what kind of work we all have, but i surely will say, i have a wonderful experience in p&g not just in my field but coordinating with people too. I've learned a lot, to be inititiave, to be energetic, get motivated & to dream high.

I will miss the corporate world, but i know this aint gonna be the last, but just a beginning for me to climb the highest mountain. (tama kaya ang pinagsasabi ko? bobo pa naman ako sa english, hahahahah)